CARS

Ok so I would love to me amused easily as kids.

My dad went to American Fork to a dealership to look a truck that Ronny wanted to buy. Well tha man who was selling the truck to my brother lives on my street and Logan plays with his grandson often. So while this man is talking to my brother about the truck and finacial stuff, you know important stuff. Well Logan was so excited that he was his friends grandpa so he just went on and on about what they would play and how much fun they had. So my dad trying to save the sale decided to take Logan to look around the cars.

Well they went around the showroom and there you are able to get in the cars so he looked inside those cars for a while when he got bored and wanted to see more cars. My dad took him out onto the lot to look at the cars. There Logan proceeded to try and open the cars but they all seemed to be locked. Well this started his quest. He tried every single car on the lot to see if any were unlocked. He found two, when he was done checking the cars it was just about time for them to go.

Right as they were about to leave Logan looked at our neighbor and said your cars are just incredible thanks for letting me have a go at them.

Where do they come up with this stuff. Man they crack me up.

PRAY

Ok so any of you that have kids know that you laugh with them, you love them, you get upset with them, you cry with them, and they can scare the crap out of you. Well logan has a razor scooter and a big boy bike. These two things are so scary because I have never seen a child his age go that fast without crashing or running into anything...Ok I have never seen some adults or teenagers do the things he does.

We live in a circle and he is only allowed to go around the circle part and not down the street, and he is to look both ways before he is to cross the street. So knowing thins he will start off at our driveway (which is smack dab in the middle of the street), he gets on his bike and rides like a bat out of hell. As soon as he gets to where he needs to cross he he hits the brakes and skids and he knows exactly how far back he needs to stop so he doesnt go into the street.
Then he will cross with no problem at all and he never has any crashes on his bike he has gone down some stairs and off a pretty high drop and he rides it into our sloped garage to park it and will skid down the hill.

Then with the scooter he has amazing balance knows how to use the brake and can manuvere that thing like no one else I have seen, espescially for his age.

I can handle sports I can handle bikes and scooters but I know the stupid things and all the broken bones with me as a kid and I can only imagine. He is a daredevil when it comes to speed he loves to go fast he always tells us in the car to go faster and pass the other cars up. What have I raised a speed demon. Crap... Although he has a talent I will give him that because he can sure move those fast things around any object with out even batting an eyelash.
So what to do with a speed demon, PRAY...

WOW

This is pretty cool not a fan of reality tv and of ventriloquists but WOW!!! It's almost creepy. Watch I hope you like it

Trains Trains and more Trains

So anyone who knows my son to any degree should know that he is obsessed with trains. His obsession is borderline addiction, and I did not know that a four year could experience addiction.
Well he has multiple toys when I say multiple he is an only child from divorced parents and he lives in grandma and grandpas house, yeah he is spoiled. He has cars, games, leappads, a castle, little people play sets, monsters inc toys, toy story toys, pirate toys, DVDs ok well I think you get the point.

So my point to this blog is that from the time he was 18 months he has had this adoration to trains. He has five different train sets. It doesn't matter which one he is plying with it is just like he just got it and the excitement is there every time. He has to show you the different ways he has built the track, and the cars and engines and the caboose. He knows more about trains than anyone else I know, he knows what a breakdown train looks like and what its for and what the coal car is and the freight cars(ok sadly I had no idea what a freight car was until he explained to me). He has the books and Thomas stuff galore and he knows all there names its scary really.

Well about 4 months ago we were at Hamons toy store and they sell the really expensive train sets that you put together and put the trees and grass and it is really a collectors item. He was in seventh heaven... The guy behind the counter was showing someone this train part out of the catalog they had, Logan was so interested in the details of every page that the employer gave him the catalog. He had me read it to him constantly, well its a catalog much to read but he had fun. Well yesterday he found it and it was just like the guy had just given it to him for the first time. We had to read it over again. It is so funny how he is with this stuff.
My point to this blog is that we should not let the little things go unnoticed and that we should not take for granted the little things we have, make everything we have just as exciting as the first time we got it.
Love you all.

Happy Whatever

The 24th for me was a great an exciting day.
I always forget that people outside of Utah don't get to share in the same fun that we Utahn's do, which is celebrating the 24th of July.

It is mostly celebrated the exact same way that the 4th is celebrated only we admire the fact that pioneers crossed the plains to make it to this specific place and decided to stop and say, "This is the Place." Anyways I always seem to send out text to my friends saying stuff like Merry Christmas, for those of you who are of other faiths, Happy Hanukkah. Well today being the 24th I sent out a text to most of my friends and family, and it read Happy 24th. I got many replies as why I decided to send some random text message... I sat there and wondered why most of my family and a few of my friends were replying in this manner. Wonderful question, well it hit when I tried to call a government run office and realized with the message on their machine that it was a STATEWIDE holiday.

Some of my friends and family are Mormon, and some not so with this in mind I decided to just be cool and say hey I was just making sure you were having a happy 24th because I sure the hell am!!! I left it at that.

Meanwhile, I had done some shopping, got my son out of the bath, into his jammies, and ready for the fireworks. Leaving my cell phone inside and not even thinking about it, I mean after all we were going outside to do pop its and watch cheesy fireworks with our awesome neighbors, (and by the way that awesome is spoken in a Jersey accent). After all the fireworks were done and the excitement had died down it was bed time. Everyone can sleep except for me I finished Harry Potter and was wondering what I should do when it hit me. I don't have my cell, its usually always on me.

I had 15 texts when I finally found where I had placed my phone. Most of them saying how weird i was or still questioning my wishes earlier on today. However I had three people text me saying how much of a shit I was because I always do stupid things and seem to think they are stupid in the process. I just had to look at these and laugh in reply to most of those text did you not read my last blog I had just come out with how much of a nerd I really am and if you don't like it tough. LOL...

Oh and the parade wasn't too bad even though we had already seen the floats in the judgment show yesterday yay!!!

So to all of you out there Happy 24th!!!

WOW WHO KNEW

So have you ever had that feeling that you have come to realize what you are? Well today I have figured out how much of a nerd I really am. I mean I knew I was a nerd but alot of that I was feeding off of other people.

Well today something happened, actually I think it started at about 10:00 pm last night. I went to a Harry Potter Party at Barnes and Nobles to get the book at midnight. It's not just the mere fact that I went to the party or that I was going with one of my friends who could recite the books to you on the spot. It was that I was extremely excited to go to this party!!! As soon as we walked into the door I felt like a little kid on Christmas morning, well that's not a good example because I still feel that way about Christmas. Ok more like when you are little and you get something for the first time and you are so excited about it your little body just cant contain itself. You want to scream and jump for joy. Well when you are a kid you can get away with it, but I did it anyways.

I didn't dress up, although I really wanted to I just didn't have a costume. When we walked in the door I felt right at home with all the other nuts. They gave us Harry Potter glow in the dark glasses and I flirted with a worker there just so that once the hype has died down he will give me his hat. Which he said yes too yay!!! I was walking around and admiring people who dressed up and I even went to the people who had brought a real rat in the store which they had named Scabbers.

Well ten seconds to midnight they did a countdown and as soon as we hit one me and me alone yelled out happy new year, I got quite a few interesting looks, it also would have been nice to be by that cute worker to kiss him after I had said that. Any who I got my book and on our way out the door having my book in hand I yelled out oh no Harry's dead and ran off to the car as quick as I could.

When I got home it was all I could do to stay awake to read the book and right now I am trying to get this done so I can read some more.

Well tonight I went for a drive with a friend and as I am driving and talking extremely fast with no filtration system on whatsoever it struck me right then and there, in the middle of my fries, how much of a nerd I really am and how proud I am to be that way. I feel like singing I am proud to be a nerd all around but to the music of I am proud to be an American.

I am a Nerd not because I want to fit in, definitely the wrong way to go there if I wanted to fit in, not because I want to stand out, not because I had married a nerd and was trained that way, not because my friends are nerds, not to pretend in any way shape or form, but because that is what I want and that is who I am. It has taken me a while to really arrive at this conclusion, that this is who I am this is who I want to be and if anyone wants different I am sorry I am not changing for you, so come off it!!! NERD

Never Sure

So lately has been really weird. I am going to explain to you on how I mean that. Ok

1. I got bit by a black widow spider it was in my bra I got bit on the boob. Who does that. The bite mark was really creepy a perfect bullseye, with two black marks in the very center.
2. Cleaned my room and sprayed so my son and I had to sleep upstairs for a week till the spray was no longer dangerous to us. And sharing an air mattress with a 4 year old is no treat...no I loved it.
3. My eye has been twitching really bad for the last week. I asked why eyes do that and everyone told me it was from anxiety. My response to that is oh great, specific orders from my neurologist says I am supposed to live a stress free life. HA!!!
4. My medicaid problem, I have had medicaid I thought for the last year apparently they discontinued it when I started my job at Mothers Helper, Because I made TO much money, however I just recently found this out when I went to the pharmacy to pick up perscriptions and the guy there asked if my insurance had changed because they don't have any that is willing to support me anymore. well thats just peachy had to get three seizure medications all costing 180 each...
5. The other thing I feel like a few of my friends are avoiding me. I am not sure why for some and am hurt because of others.
6. Last but not least have you ever had that weird feeling as if someone is watching you? Well it is not all the time but I get that every once in a while and it is really annoying. Stop following me my life isn't that exciting it is rather dull and mundane...

Well all of you if you ever Think life is weird thats because it is. Life is best understood Backwards then we can see why we were there and see the reasons for what, why, where, and when.

Moving????

New Jersey


San Diego


Seattle

Okay so I had a discussion with one of my neighbors the other night and was thinking about moving somewhere just to go somewhere new and try and get out of this funk I am in. So I am writting this now because I need some help on where you guys should think I should move too. I know I can't just pack up and leave and in a way it is my way of running away from things because I have never really physically done this but I really want to and I need to. (it probably will not happen but it is one of those things that I would like to do so help please). So my thoughts on where to move to are Seattle, sounds like fun, San Diego, I have family there and it is so beautiful, and Jawdy despite what you think I want to go to Jersey, jay and silent bob, lol.... so yeah what do you think????

My opinion

New Movies
Ok since I am a Huge, let me refrase that HUGE movie fan I am going to let you all know what I think about recen t movies that have come out are out that I have seen...The Good, the Bad, the Ugly




300

Now if you thought I was going to leave this movie out well then you do not know me at all. I loved it ok I loved it. It does not stay entirly true to actual events but they are going for an artsy view of it. The cinematography was amazing, the director amazing, the actors oh wow just hot thinking about them, And Gerard Butler man oh man he beats any man in my book. The only thing I did not care for in this movie were two of the nude scenes, one had a teenage girls nipples which looked like mesquito bites yes they were that small, (come on if you are going to show boobs show good ones). The other nude scen was the weird one at Xerxes house or whatever and there are deformed people and just gross stuff didn't move the story along whatsoever. Loved it.....

PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN AT WORLDS END

Over all I liked the movie, it was a little to long and for some it had a sad ending. I enjoyed the Jack Sparrow humor in it could have used a little more of it. I being the female I am enjoyed it simply for the cuteness in it, namely Orlando Bloom and awww Johnny Depp. I like the graphics can't go wrong there, the only other flaw I saw in the movie was Callipso she really had no story to run with and had no closure or anything to her character.



OCEANS THIRTEEN

Ok not going to lie to you again hot guys.... The Movie was much better than the second probably comes close to the first one for me. Some very sweet moments shows they have more personality and humanity, lol. Al is a great bad guy always has been, loved the twins in this great and I was so hoping for a bigger part for my good ole buddy Eddie Izzard. The stroy was just as confusing as the other two easier to follow than the second. Fun movie not a nessecity to see in the theatres. I give it 3 1/2 stars lol



KNOCKED UP

Ok so this one was no academy award winning film. It had it's funny moments it's sweet moments and was overall another 40 year old Virgin movie. The characters meshed well and had good chemistry. Going into this movie you must realize that it is all going to be stupid humor and must like that kind it does have it's chick flick moments though. Guys could take a date who doesn't get offended to easily.

SPIDERMAN THREE

I am a comic nerd so I am more partial to these kind of flicks. I liked Peter going emo I thought it was funny I thought he did a good job being cocky. I have never really cared for Kirsten Dunst so she does not take to my fancy as an MJ. I liked how the story flowed I think they got rid of villians to fast and I think they should have taken less time on the Peter-MJ story and gone to the fight scenes. Over all I enjoyed the movie very much so and would recomend it to anyone



SHREK THE THIRD

I was very much so bored as well as the three kids that were with me at the time we went to see it. It was no where near as funny as the first or second. It had its moments but very few and far between. Oh and for the record Justin Timberlake should be seen and not heard... I will give them credit that they still have the same voices for all of the characters. This is one that sad to say I was dissapointed I had to use that matinee money on this movie.

Well I will leave it at that for now keep in touch let me know if there is one I don't post maybe I have seen it or could tell you about it.

The 23 year...

So I now have to put this down since this basically is an online journal...I hate Jordans theory about being 23. I can't wait for October to come, it saams as soon as I overcome one problem an even bigger one arrises to take it's place. I am not so sure I can handle more. I know I have so many blessings and so much to be thankful for I am just so frusterated with lifes problems. I am writing this because I have a hard time saying my true feelings to people to their face and I needed to just spill otherwise I think I would have cracked. So for all of you who read this that come in close contact with me, no I am not depressed, yes I am very frusterated at the problems and issues that lay before me and that lie ahead. Sorry for being a downer in this just needed to get some unwanted feelings out...
Love Britt

P.S. Jawdy you jinxed me!!!

OK so I figured since I saw the movie about 300 times ok really eight (in the theatre), I need to put one of my favorate things on my blog. I think this is great, since the first 7 times I didn't notice anything other than the men...

300

Disney World Biotch

What A Beautifull Place or should I say MAGICAL PLACE, where all your dreams come true....

Disney Castle MGM HAT

Epcot whatever you wanna call it...

Me with vegitation Mickey and Minnie lines

were usually to long for the real thing...

Right outside the Star Tours wahooo I am a nerd

Us by a big tree (in Animal Kingdom)

So yeah I ruled the world, OK so not quite the world but it felt like it. Why you ask because I went to Disney World oh yeah baby!!! I went with three friends and had a kid free week in a kid based theme park how wrong is that. however it was a total nonstop crazy action packed week no kid would have been able to keep up... So we flew on two planes to get there and two planes back but I will get there just wait. Took a bus to the hotel got settled then went straight for MGM grand baby oh it was a blast, we were there till like 2:30 in the morning then woke up and went to Epcot for the day. Traveled to 11 countries in one day WOW did my feet hurt. Had to buy some mickey crocks. Then we went to Magic Kingdom, then back to MGM then I forget it kind of just blurs into one oh and we went to Wild animal Kingdom which in my opinion is to claustrophobic. We shopped ate food and I even got in trouble for not eating my vegetables and trying to hide them under my chicken. On the way back in the airplane I had to sit all by my lonesome as my friends were a few rows up and on the other side I decided to dance along to my head phones and doodle on the plane napkin the stewardesses loved me. Made me dance in the isle and teased me about my superhero doodles. It was awesome. By the Way Salt Lake International is one of the smallest airports I have seen wow i mean totally wow...

Well hope you all get to one day experience the magic and come again soon

Love and Life

So I want to give a shout out to all those who have lost a love one. Recently I have had a few loved ones in my life pass, to a better place. I know that eventually we all lose someone but anytime it happens it is not easy. Even if you have gone through it before it. Just because you have been here before doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt just as bad. So my heart and prayers go out to all of you and I hope that I can become better like those that have lived before me.

Value your life because you never know how long you have. Have no regrets and live to learn, learn to live. Live life to the fullest. Take for granted what you have. You may need it. Love life be prepared for anything but take control of your life and LIVE.......

Killing Becky

Okay so we all have those really wierd dreams and vivid ones well I think this tops the cake....

So it starts out with me and my friend Becky in middle school but we are the same age that we are now. well Becky had to do a report on Ahkmenrah (dont know how to spell it). Well i thought she did a good job but this teacher got mad and said it wasn't true and desided to go dig up Ahkmenrah. well when she did he got really pissed off and killed her and her team and looked at this list of people in our school that had done reports on him. Then he decided he was going to kill those ten people and Becky was like fourth on the list. He came to Becky's house and left a copy of the list to warn her and it had his symbol on it. Well she wasn't there so he left it with her sister.
So Becky and I are driving around freaking out not knowing what to do when we decide to call Ed becuase it was like he knew all about him or something. Well we asked Ed if there was a way to kill Ahkmenrah. Ed said not untill he was done with his list why? We freaked out again and met up with Ed to tell him that Becky was number four on the list.
Ed told us that Becky couldn't drive because if she drove the mummy would be able to track her down that someone else needed to drive. Seo we decided to go to Pennsilvania to meet this profesor who had spent his whole life on the stories of Ahkmenrah. When we got there the professor was a kid we had gone to grade school with in an old mans body. He told us of some ways that we could possibly kill him but not sure fire ways.
All of the sudden we were back in Utah in the canyons with the mummy heading our way and Becky on a cliff above us while we tryed to kill him. Becky then told us that it was no use she was going to die and she knew it. She wasn't scared and she calmly took a blue and pink sparkly pencil out of her pocket and erased the name off of the list as if she was erasing her life or something. As soon as she did that Ahkmenrah turned around and left Becky yelled aren't you going to kill me and he shook his head no. Since she was off the list he was done with her or something....
Somebody tell me what this means. Why can't i remember the cool dreams the important dreams so vivadly. I can remember colors and cars and faces and the old parchment of the list and the symbol really weird. What does it mean?

Talk about being stupid

So if anyone wants to know how to be stupid and make everyone of your different friends hate you listen to this, because when I put my foot in my mouth I like to jump in with both feet.

Number one...
I have this friend who's husband is in the navy and me being me decided to go off about how all guys in the navy are gay. I am sure you guys know all the jokes well she is pregnant and is a very sensitive person and i am a total retard.

Number two...
I was at the store with one of my friends and was talking about my cousins who are half mexican. I happened to make a comment about a nickname we used to call my cousin Brenda, (now mind you she had no problem with it but yeah). Well i preceded to tell my freind the nickname and it is a racial slurr against mexicans and there was this maxican family in line behind us who got mad and went to a different line wait to go me...

Number three...
So I have these new neighbors and I know nothing about the Jewish religion just that they don't celebrate christian holidays and they eat funny foods. Well I made a comment while I was at there house about the new Mell Gibbson movie yeah smart one there. Then I asked them if they celebrated easter what the hell is wrong with me... I have no idea. So I warn you if you are sensitive stay out of my way because I am good at messing up and just shooting out the ole pie hole....

Have a nice day :-)

High Low

Me being a nerd and by the way Darth Mal you are hot!!!












So here I am at 3 in the morning once again wondering what to do and really wanting to talk to some one and realized that i guess the computer will do. As much fun as it is to make love to a computer people are much better at it... As i sit here and listen to my i tunes and download more songs (not like I really need more what am I thinking) I wonder what it would be like to discover things no one has ever discovered before. Yeah I am not tired and you all get to suffer for any of you who actually sit here and read this.
So I am going to tell you the highs and lows of this week.

Highs here we go... I went to work out last night and because of being on so many freakin meds. I am on this new diet that I like to call the pregnant diet so I have lost like ten more pounds than i needed to. Now I need to bulk up. Other highs I am going to be a total nerd and join the Alpine Garrison ( for all those non nerds out there give me a buzz i will tell you what it is lol), and on Saturday I went to the kids safty fair and wanted to make out with darth Mal because he was so freakin hot even though you the horns would probably get in the way and man that lightsaber need I say more ha wow. I made out with a random guy because I am totally on the rebound and just wanted to kiss someone I guess and it was totally funny, awkward and great now that that is out of my system lol. Oh and I am getting back into Martial arts I so rule oh yeah you better run now boy.

Ok now some lows. i nicked my leg really bad the other night when shaving and it really hurt because it was in a sensitive spot. I made a couple people fight with each other which I could probably put that in the highs too lol. It snowed again. I can't golf (because it snowed). and I ripped a hole in my superman g's damn.

Well that is pretty much it for my ever exciting life yall have fun in blog land LOVE YA!!!

Poems

Ok so not many people have heard these but I was told that they were really good, I think those people were lying. Most of these were written in a really dark time in my life and I got out by putting it on paper so read with caution. LOL

Confusion

I don't understand this anger inside,
why will he get mad at me but then hide.
Why wont he talk , why wont he share,
it's seems as if he just doesn't care.

I say to much I know this is true,
I just want us to be happy not blue.
I want him to be happy, I want him to smile,
for that treasure and joy I have not witnessed in a while.

I feel the darkness deep within,
the kind that is there beneath your skin.
When will it snap, when will it break free,
I am not sure thats something I want to see.

I am here for him, he doesn't understand,
I reach for him and grab his hand,
instead he turns away from me again.
Alone in the darkness where i have always been.

Someone, somewhere set us free,
from this ever dying misery.
Oh please i am begging to have help to get out,
I want a reason to stop this bout.
Please!!!


Like I said sad and dark but there it is beware there are more lol

Time

If time stood still, would I stand still with it?
Would I be there wondering where time had gone and done?
or would it be just a matter of time,
till life fast forward.
But if life fast forward, would we all stop questioning,
Why, What, How, or When?
Won't question the why or the how, when the what is right in front of you!!!


Tears

At one time I thought the stars were for me,
but it was just false, just a dream.
I awoke to a cruel reality,
Life; my life, what i had thought was myth was myth.
A pasifist living an activists life!!!
Or so I thought.
Only to realize my life had passed by me.
So now I sit here wondering what more could go wrong,
Oh but i was so off there so much more could.
WHAT WAS I THINKING.


Hands of my Angels

I have placed you in the hands of my angels,
to watch over you,
with all of the love i have in my heart
may they comfort you with their guiding love,
and surround you with a protective light, that will show you the way.
I have asked that they stay with you,
through this troubled time to make it less painful,
just as they have done at times for me.
I have placed you in the hands of my angels,
May they watch over you,
With all the love I have in my heart.

Poems done by Brittany S. Nester

See was that to sad? LOL have fun all you out in blogger land.

Changes

So due to some of my friends telling me that like every third one in my 100 was depressing, desperate, loserish, foolish, nonconvincing, and probably more but thats what was told to my face. I decided to go through and edit it and Make it Bigger Better and Uncut. Thats me and for all of you who read it and think it still stinks well lets see you do better...And yes I think that I am self concious about me.....

MONEY TALKS IN THIS WORLD, THAT'S WHAT IDIOTS WILL SAY. BUT YOU'LL FIND OUT THAT THIS WORLD IS JUST AN IDIOTS PARADE...

100

Just Me Like 100 Just me's

1. I have a son name Logan who is four
2. I was married to my best friend
3. I was married for four years
4. I have been divorced for about a year
5. I dated a man who was about twice my age (why I don't know he wasn't even wealthy)
6. My favorate color is blue
7. I love movies
8. I love cheesy movies like Disney channel ones they make me smile
9. I am a brown belt third degree in Tae Kwan Do
10. I love to shoot guns even if I can't remember all their names.
11. I love to listen to the same song over and over again if it is a good one
12. I have like over 14,000 songs in my itunes
13. I don't sleep much
14. I feel so much closer to my sister in law than I do my own sister
15. I love people and talking to them, Unless it is a cute guy then I get shy, maybe that is why I am single.
16. I am a mormon mommy I scrapbook and I love it
17. I absolutly love going on long trips in the car it sooths me
18. My dad is my hero
19. I don't think I am funny at all
20. In fact I think I am annoying
21. I use humor when I am sad to distract myself
22. I am OCD
23. My dvd's have to be perfect can't stand when some are missing it bugs me
24. I hate to clean though
25. I have about fifty posters under my bed and about eight on my bedroom walls
26. I loved my job at Hollywood video but I would never go back
27. I have lied alot in my past (but i do not any more)
28. I cannot by bras outside of Victoria Secret (i am an expensive bra person).
29. I love to kiss whether it is short, long, messy, sweet, romantic I love it
30. I could probably out burp most guys
31. I love comics my sons name is Logan James
32. I want a baby girl
33. If I get one her name will be Phoenix Grey
34. I love comic book shops
35. I love nerds
36. I like anything that is shiny I like technology
37. I am a big gamer
38. At one point i had an xbox, ps2, psp, gamecube, nintendo ds, gameboy advance, and a pc
39. I have 7 hard drives in my computer and don't know what half of them do
40. I went to Germany to pick up my oldest brother from his mission
41. I have always looked up to my brother Tyson and he has always been so cool
42. I have known my best friend since i was one
43. I secretly want to play with barbie's and lego's again
44. I got married before i graduated high school
45. I got pregnant after i got married but before i graduated high school
46. I love being outdoors and campfires

47. I hate confrontations
48. I am really self contious and have always been told Bethany is the pretty one 49. I sleep in boxers (usually no undies underneath hey they are guys underwear right so why should I wear two pairs...)
50. I want a guy to fight for me for a change
51. I am somewhat clingy and know I need to fix that
52. My parents thought i had died when I had my first seizure at two
53. I am an epileptic
54. I am a total nerd and am proud of it
55. I love the 49ers and Utah football teams
56. I absolutly love the beach and could live there
57. my destination of choice would be any cruise
58. I love roller coasters even the cheesy ones at Lagoon.
59. I really don't have any original lines I get them all from movies or stand up comedians
60. I am really baby hungry lol (if you want to know ask)
61. I am sick of working with kids don't think I will ever do it again HAHAHA
62. I love school
63. I love stores like wild oats but realistically I would starve if I had to shop there (no fritos Bean Dip).
64. I think I have a really cool car and I really am not lying even though it really is a POS, it has served me well it is my baby

65. When i buy toys for my son I buy toys that I want to play with too
66. I really like when it rains outside at night and i can hear it outside my window
67. I love marzipan
68. I am like your average girl with shoes except i want all skater shoes like vans and dc who cares about the pumps...
69. I really want to learn how to skateboard
70. I have played and beaten every tony hawk game out there
71. My favirate number is two
72. I LOVE HAVING RED HAIR
73. My ex husband is a computer god in my eyes
74. I love t-shirts
75. I get most of my t-shirts on the sales racks in the little boys section at target
76. my favorate store is HotTopic
77. Next is the vans store
78. I have to have pillows and blankets all over my bed so it feels like someone is there with me (even when someone is there with me)
79. I love hanging out with friends, even if they don't want me around
80. I can't stand it when someone else uses my computer, I feel like it is my computer get your own computer...
81. I am overly emotional i cry at everything it is a flaw, like any chick flick I know going in I am going to cry it sucks I might as well be crying over a damn comercial
82. I used to go into Hollywood video not to rent but just to talk with the people 83. I would love to be a movie critic
84. But I hate horrors
85. I am very squeemish
86. I went and saw both Pokemon and Rugrat movies in the theatre on opening day
87. and yet I love Kevin smith LOVE HIM...
88. I love to watch people I used to go to the airport when you could and go sit and watch people
89. I really want a dog
90. I love to play Texas hold em just for fun not for the money
91. I love to sing and dance with my cool Skullcandy headphones on in my house when I am alone and have been caught doing it by the fed ex guy very embarrassing.

92 I love to sing in the car with my stereo blaring and with that I don't care who sees

93 I am dislexic so if anything is misspelled screw you
94. I have been drunk before very overated
95. I love to smile but I hate my smile
96. I had braces for six years
97. My teeth still aren't straight
98. I have had over 400 beanie babies at one time I don't buy them anymore but they still catch my eye
99. I have broke all ten toes at one time
100. I am very coordinated but i get hurt alot lol
101. I almost got shoved in my locker in seventh grade

Well Thats alot not everything but alot if you want to know more let me know... And yes I went 101 because its one louder it goes to 101.

Its a wierd world

So I am just really bored and not tired since it is like 12. Well i thought I would tell you how the beggining of this year has been so far. The good the bad and the ugly.

So to start off the New Year I missed the great party that I used to go to with James at Pc Laptops, as well as the cool Christmas party. I love having all the apple cider that my dad buys which he buys like twenty so we had plenty to go around and overall my new years was relativly boring. No parties no junk food(ok thats a lie LOL) but I did watch a few movies to pass the time. If only.

Later on January I had to quit my job and I was not able to go back to school because at the moment I cannot drive (which has been interesting in itself). In quitting my job i realized how much stressed was relieved because i could do so much with Logan and do more at home. The middle of January my great uncle got really sick and was in icu for along time. Which this hit me really hard because i really spent time with him this year because their house was down the street from my college. So when i had breaks I would go there and say hi and talk and eat lunch and got to know him better. They are an amazing family and i hated what they had to go through with him. I love him very much and it was really hard to lose him. One of the hardest things for me is that because of my seizures I didn't even get to go to the funeral. I know that funerals can be overrated but for me it is a closure moment and I missed that I feel like I have failed on so many levels. He is one man though that I know right now he is up with our Father in Heaven smiling down upon us because he is no longer in pain.

I told you all about my seizure situation so I wont really go into that again, but after the whole breaking the nose incident this guy that I had dated decided to break up with me. So I kind of felt like it was a sure kick me while I was down sort of thing. I then realized that I am much happier and that we were not meant to be at all. And I had some great friends to bring me through thanks guys.

I have made some really good friends and have had some friends really step up to help me. My friend Jeri is a stay at home mom too so we go to lunch and I tag along with her while she goes grocery shopping and other not really fun errands but better than sitting at home. She also dies my hair and lets me chill at her house.

My other friend Becky has gone with me to many movies on the spur of the moment. Also out to eat to Ihop because Denny's they place me at a table and forget about me. Plus I go over to Becky's house and will sit and toalk to her and her family and they tollerate me.

I also have these really cool new neighbors who moved in next to Becky who tollerate me as well. I kind of pop over unanounced and they gave me a new phone and would give me tea untill there replacement babysitter broke their tea maker. Thats what they get for trying to replace me... The are really cool and funny to talk to nonetheless.

I have my friend Ed and his family they are pretty cool to let me go over and pretty much hang at there house almost 24/7. It is some what a sanctuary when i need it nice, and friendly. Plus we have alot of laughs and stupid inside jokes that make us laugh and the boys they crack me up so much. They make me laugh and are awesome kids.

Logan is doing great he knows that something is going on with me because he is very protective of me and he minds me better. Soon he will be playing soccer and he chose that because my next door neighbor plays it. He got shin gaurds socks and a new socker ball to use he is so excited. He is such a character and amazes me everyday. He is my joy in life my one and only. I don't know where i would be without him, he is fabulous.

I also have to give a shout out to my Dad. I know he is over protective of me and my pill nazi but I know it is just because he loves me and wants me to be happy. He has been my saving grace sometimes and he is truely my hero. For all of you in comic land my dad is the real thing the ral deal and no one can replace that. He is great, no words can describe what he means to me. My dad is the greatest that ever walked the face of this earth and if you think other wise I would be glad to take your challenge.

Anyone who has seen me within the last few days can tell I am on 4 pills because of my seizures and with that comes side effects. I am either really tired or I am really Hyper and I can't stop talking or moving and some might think it is annoying but I am sorry I really can't help it. I know that I wont be finding a date for Valentines day because I am rather annoying right now but I don't need one I have everything. If you don't believe me look at the smile in my face. I really do love life in all its trials and tribulations. I live for the moment and love every one i come across. Love you all

Seizure...

So most of you are very close to me and know about my comings and goings. Some know more than others some know intimate details. For those who don't really know here I go on my soap box... Well I have seizures and until recently I have had them under control for about two years. Recently because of unknown reasons I have been having more. I have had about a totall of seven since Christmas. I had one where I actually ended up hurting myself pretty bad. I fell and hit my nightstand by my bed and broke my nose, went to the ER that night and they couldn't even give me pain killers bacause of the meds I am on. Then the next night I went up to get a glass of milk and fell and had a seizure but this time I was not coming out of it and my parents had to call 911 ever so lovely. So as for me I am going to look on the bright side of life and i advise the same for all of you out there in blog land. And for those of you who didn't get to see that lovely nose, the above picture is of me about a week after I broke it yay!